There
was a moment, about two years ago, as I walked down the soggy, dimly-lit
sidewalks of Brussels with my suitcase and handwritten directions to the hostel
for which I’d spent the last forty minutes unsuccessfully hunting, that I
realized: this is actual danger. A car glided slowly, behind me, its occupants
saying something to me—in French? an invitation—and laughing to one another. An
about-face, and two sudden right turns gave them the slip, but shop doors were
closed, the last train back to the airport long-gone, and I was very alone.
Last
year in January it was a similar story at the Chiang Mai bus station. The past
two years have afforded plenty such scary moments. There have been times I
busted through three contingency plans before the grace of God carried the day
and I ended up somewhere I never could have expected, safe and sound. Each time:
the adrenaline rush, the frantic prayers, the deep breaths, and the wide-eyed
surety that this, surely this, is the
scariest moment of my life.
I
now have a new scariest. But first, another flashback.
When
I was in high school, my family visited Austria and took a day-long Sound of
Music tour. For music dorks who occasionally bill themselves as the Von
Schnabel Quartet, it was a bundle of fun. Beautiful sights, familiar buildings
from the movie, and—near the end—a self-steer metal luge ride down the side of
the mountain. Perhaps my dad said it first, but I remember thinking—as I sat
down in this tiny little contraption that was about to whisk me a million miles
an hour to my very probably death—that I really shouldn’t be allowed to do this
without some kind of training. A safety course, a guide, an instructional video
like on the airplane, or at least a helmet and knee pads.
The
same feeling prevailed three days ago when my Brazilian friends showed up at
the Warkworth Lodge and said,
“You
can drive manual, right?”
I
can: on very flat surfaces—like my elementary school parking lot—with no other
cars near me, in the right lane rather than the left, and with Coach Mom in the
passenger seat (on my right with the
rest of the car).
I
can drive manual, just like I could
steer the luge down the mountain, but I should not be allowed to do so.
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The easy part of the drive |
New
Zealand, unfortunately, provides none of the things on my safety list. Instead,
it’s uphill! downhill! twist left! curve right! drive on the left! signal with
the right! lots of honking, some people drinking, and a light mist as dusk
settles into darkness. “Where are the headlights on this thing?” “I can’t find
the defrost button!” “Turn here?”
“No, there! Next to the sign with the yellow things and the—oh, you passed it…”
When
a truck caused a backup, I stalled in the middle of a steep ascent. I stalled
twice more when incorrect directions took us to the wrong motel—also located
midway up a mountain. I swerved off the road once—forgetting how much of the
car was on my left—hit a couple curbs. I swore a little and prayed a lot.
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The speed limit is about 100 km/hr, but you can't go consistently much
above 65 because of constant curves. |
My
knees were actually weak when I unfurled them to get out of the driver’s seat
in Bay of Islands in the Northlands. I clutched the driver’s side door for
support, and took deep breaths—remembering Brussels, remembering Chiang Mai,
buses in Cambodia, luge rides in Austria, and all those moments that I had
thought were dangerous before.
They
were. And so was this. Also, stupid and reckless and exhilarating. Maybe in a
few years I’ll forget exactly how it feels to know that this is how “Dead
Twenty-Somethings Found on the Side of New Zealand Mountain” headlines are
made. In the meantime, I’m going to sit back and be grateful for my bones still
being underneath my skin and breath pumping in and out of my lungs. I’m
grateful for the insurance we bought—which will cover the hubcap I lost at some
point around Cape Reinga, or maybe nearer to Kawakawa (a one-road town with
108-roads with of personality)—and I’m grateful for my new-found driving
abilities.
Indiana
roads should be no problem after this.
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Met this little cutie at Cooper Bay. Like a cross between a rabbit and a puppy. |
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With friends like these, who needs anemones? |
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Geoff and Liz, Jorgia and Sonnie from the Warkworth Lodge! |
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Me and Sabine, who taught me how to say "Halt deinen Schnabel!" |
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Going for a morning run at Bay of Islands. Is it too early in this relationship to say "I love you," Aesics? Because it's true. |
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Sand and rainy sun at Cooper Bay |
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Rawr! |
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At the End of the World |
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Cape Reinga |